URANTIA RAAMAT - 193. Kiri. Viimased ilmumised ja taevaminek

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URANTIA RAAMAT   

IV OSA: Jeesuse elu ja Õpetused



193. Kiri. Viimased ilmumised ja taevaminek

Paper 193 : Final Appearances and Ascension

JEESUSE kuueteistkümnes morontiailmumine toimus reedel, 5. mail kella üheksa paiku õhtul Nikodeemose õuel. Tol õhtul olid Jeruusalemma uskujad teinud esimese katse pärast ülestõusmist kokku tulla. Selleks ajaks olid siia kogunenud üksteist apostlit, naiskorpus koos oma kaaslastega ja veel ligikaudu viiskümmend juhtivat jüngrit, sealhulgas mitmed kreeklased. See uskujate seltskond oli juba üle poole tunni omavahel vestelnud, kui äkki ilmus Meister selgelt nähtavana morontiakujul ja hakkas neid kohe õpetama. Jeesus ütles:

193:0.1 (2052.1) THE sixteenth morontia manifestation of Jesus occurred on Friday, May 5, in the courtyard of Nicodemus, about nine o’clock at night. On this evening the Jerusalem believers had made their first attempt to get together since the resurrection. Assembled here at this time were the eleven apostles, the women’s corps and their associates, and about fifty other leading disciples of the Master, including a number of the Greeks. This company of believers had been visiting informally for more than half an hour when, suddenly, the morontia Master appeared in full view and immediately began to instruct them. Said Jesus:

„Rahu olgu teiega. See on kõige esinduslikum uskujate rühm — apostlid ja jüngrid, nii mehed kui ka naised —, kellele ma olen pärast lihast vabanemist ilmunud. Nagu te mäletate, teatasin teile juba varem, et minu viibimine teie seas jõuab paratamatult lõpule; ma ütlesin teile, et ma pean Isa juurde tagasi pöörduma. Tookord kirjeldasin ma teile selgelt, kuidas juutide ülempreestrid ja valitsejad annavad mind üles ning lasevad hukata, ja ütlesin, et ma tõusen hauast. Miks te lasite siis end kõigest sellest sedavõrd häirida, kui nii juhtuski? Miks olite nii üllatunud, kui ma kolmandal päeval hauast tõusin? Te ei uskunud mind, sest olite kuulnud küll mu sõnu, aga polnud nende tähendust mõistnud.

193:0.2 (2052.2) “Peace be upon you. This is the most representative group of believers — apostles and disciples, both men and women — to which I have appeared since the time of my deliverance from the flesh. I now call you to witness that I told you beforehand that my sojourn among you must come to an end; I told you that presently I must return to the Father. And then I plainly told you how the chief priests and the rulers of the Jews would deliver me up to be put to death, and that I would rise from the grave. Why, then, did you allow yourselves to become so disconcerted by all this when it came to pass? and why were you so surprised when I rose from the tomb on the third day? You failed to believe me because you heard my words without comprehending the meaning thereof.

Nüüd aga peaksite avama oma kõrvad mu sõnadele vältimaks jälle sama viga, et kuulate mu õpetust vaid mõistusega, südames selle tähendust mõistmata. Alates sellest ajast, kui ma teie sekka tulin, olen õpetanud teile, et minu ainus eesmärk on ilmutada oma taevast Isa tema maistele lastele. Olen teinud läbi Jumalat ilmutava annetumise selleks, et teie võiksite kogeda Jumala tundmise eluteed. Olen ilmutanud Jumalat teie taevase Isana, olen ilmutanud teid kui Jumala poegi maa peal. See on tõsiasi, et Jumal armastab teid, oma poegi. Usk minu sõnadesse teeb selle tõsiasja teie südameis igaveseks ja elavaks tõeks. Kui te elava usu kaudu Jumalast jumalikult teadlikuks saate, sünnite vaimust kui valguse ja elu lapsed igavesse ellu, milles te tõusete universumite universumis üha kõrgemale, kuni jõuate Jumala, Paradiisi-Isa leidmise kogemuseni.

193:0.3 (2052.3) “And now you should give ear to my words lest you again make the mistake of hearing my teaching with the mind while in your hearts you fail to comprehend the meaning. From the beginning of my sojourn as one of you, I taught you that my one purpose was to reveal my Father in heaven to his children on earth. I have lived the God-revealing bestowal that you might experience the God-knowing career. I have revealed God as your Father in heaven; I have revealed you as the sons of God on earth. It is a fact that God loves you, his sons. By faith in my word this fact becomes an eternal and living truth in your hearts. When, by living faith, you become divinely God-conscious, you are then born of the spirit as children of light and life, even the eternal life wherewith you shall ascend the universe of universes and attain the experience of finding God the Father on Paradise.

Manitsen teid alati meeles pidama, et teie ülesanne on levitada inimeste seas taevariigi evangeeliumi — Jumala isaduse reaalsust ja tõde inimesest kui tema pojast. Kuulutage heade sõnumite kogu tõde, mitte ainult üht osa päästvast evangeeliumist. Minu ülestõusmiskogemus teie sõnumit ei muuda. Usu kaudu saavutatud Jumala poja seisus on endiselt taevariigi evangeeliumi päästev tõde. Te peate minema jutlustama jumala armastust ja inimese teenimist. Maailmal on kõige enam vaja teada just seda: inimesed on Jumala pojad ja võivad seda õilistavat tõde reaalselt kogeda usu ja igapäevakogemuste kaudu. Minu annetumine peaks aitama kõigil inimestel teada saada, et nad on Jumala lapsed, aga sellest teadmisest ei piisa, kui nad isiklikult usu kaudu ei mõista päästvat tõde, et nad on igavese Isa elava vaimu pojad. Taevariigi evangeelium käsitleb Isa armastust ja tema maapealsete laste teenimist.

193:0.4 (2052.4) “I admonish you ever to remember that your mission among men is to proclaim the gospel of the kingdom — the reality of the fatherhood of God and the truth of the sonship of man. Proclaim the whole truth of the good news, not just a part of the saving gospel. Your message is not changed by my resurrection experience. Sonship with God, by faith, is still the saving truth of the gospel of the kingdom. You are to go forth preaching the love of God and the service of man. That which the world needs most to know is: Men are the sons of God, and through faith they can actually realize, and daily experience, this ennobling truth. My bestowal should help all men to know that they are the children of God, but such knowledge will not suffice if they fail personally to faith-grasp the saving truth that they are the living spirit sons of the eternal Father. The gospel of the kingdom is concerned with the love of the Father and the service of his children on earth.

Teie siin teate, et ma olen surnuist üles tõusnud, kuid selles pole midagi imelikku. Mul on meelevald anda oma elu ja see uuesti tagasi võtta: Isa annab oma Paradiisi-Poegadele selle võime. Pigem peaks teid südames erutama teadmine, et varsti pärast seda, kui ma Joosepi uuest hauakambrist lahkusin, asusid ühe ajastu surnud igavesele tõusuteele. Ma elasin oma elu inimesena selleks, et näidata, kuidas te võite elava teenimise kaudu ilmutada Jumalat oma kaasinimestele, nii nagu mina olen teid armastades ja teenides teile Jumalat ilmutanud. Olen elanud teie seas Inimese Pojana, et te võiksite koos kõigi teiste inimestega teada, et olete tõepoolest Jumala pojad. Seepärast minge nüüd üle kogu maailma laiali seda taevariigi evangeeliumi kõigile inimestele jutlustama. Armastage kõiki inimesi, nagu mina olen teid armastanud; teenige oma kaasinimesi nii, nagu mina olen teid teeninud. Muidu olete saanud, muidu ka andke. Jääge siia Jeruusalemma vaid seniks, kuni mina olen Isa juurde naasnud ja teile Tõe Vaimu saatnud. Tema juhib teid avarama tõe juurde ja mina tulen koos teiega kõikjale maailma. Ma olen alati teiega ja jätan teiega oma rahu.”

193:0.5 (2053.1) “Among yourselves, here, you share the knowledge that I have risen from the dead, but that is not strange. I have the power to lay down my life and to take it up again; the Father gives such power to his Paradise Sons. You should the rather be stirred in your hearts by the knowledge that the dead of an age entered upon the eternal ascent soon after I left Joseph’s new tomb. I lived my life in the flesh to show how you can, through loving service, become God-revealing to your fellow men even as, by loving you and serving you, I have become God-revealing to you. I have lived among you as the Son of Man that you, and all other men, might know that you are all indeed the sons of God. Therefore, go you now into all the world preaching this gospel of the kingdom of heaven to all men. Love all men as I have loved you; serve your fellow mortals as I have served you. Freely you have received, freely give. Only tarry here in Jerusalem while I go to the Father, and until I send you the Spirit of Truth. He shall lead you into the enlarged truth, and I will go with you into all the world. I am with you always, and my peace I leave with you.”

Kui Meister oli kõnelnud, kadus ta neil silmist. Koidik oli juba käes, kui uskujad laiali läksid. Nad olid kogu ööks kokku jäänud, et arutada tõsiselt Meistri manitsusi ja kõike muud, mis nendega oli juhtunud. Jaakobus Sebedeus ja teised apostlid rääkisid rahvale oma kohtumisest morontia-Jeesusega Galileas ja tema kolmest ilmumisest neile.

193:0.6 (2053.2) When the Master had spoken to them, he vanished from their sight. It was near daybreak before these believers dispersed; all night they remained together, earnestly discussing the Master’s admonitions and contemplating all that had befallen them. James Zebedee and others of the apostles also told them of their experiences with the morontia Master in Galilee and recited how he had three times appeared to them.

1. Ilmumine Sühharis

1. The Appearance at Sychar

Sabati, 13. mai õhtupoolikul kella nelja paiku ilmus Meister Naldale ja umbes seitsmekümne viiele samaarlasest uskujale Sühharis Jaakobi kaevu lähedal. Uskujatel oli tavaks koos käia paigas, kus Jeesus oli Naldale eluveest rääkinud. Kui nad tol päeval olid surnuist ülestõusmise üle arutamise lõpetanud, ilmus äkki nende ette Jeesus ja ütles:

193:1.1 (2053.3) About four o’clock on Sabbath afternoon, May 13, the Master appeared to Nalda and about seventy-five Samaritan believers near Jacob’s well, at Sychar. The believers were in the habit of meeting at this place, near where Jesus had spoken to Nalda concerning the water of life. On this day, just as they had finished their discussions of the reported resurrection, Jesus suddenly appeared before them, saying:

„Rahu olgu teiega. Te tunnete rõõmu, et mina olen ülestõusmine ja elu, aga teil pole sellest mingit kasu, kui te ei ole kõigepealt sündinud igavesest vaimust ja saanud seeläbi usu kaudu kingiks igavest elu. Kui te olete minu Isa usupojad, ei sure te kunagi; te ei hukku. Taevariigi evangeelium on teile õpetanud, et kõik inimesed on Jumala pojad. Ja seda head sõnumit taevase Isa armastusest oma maiste laste vastu tuleb kanda kogu maailmale. On tulnud aeg, mil te ei palvelda Jumalat Gerisimi mäel ega Jeruusalemmas, vaid seal, kus te olete, ja sellistena, nagu olete, vaimus ja tões. Teie hinged päästab teie usk. Pääsemine on Jumala kingitus kõigile, kes usuvad end tema pojad olevat. Aga ärge eksige: pääsemine on küll Jumala tasuta kingitus ja see anneta takse kõigile, kes selle usu kaudu vastu võtavad, kuid sellele järgneb vaimuelu viljade kandmine inimelu ajal. Jumala isaduse õpetuse tunnustamine tähendab, et te võtate vabalt vastu ka sellega seotud tõe inimestevahelise vendluse kohta. Kui inimene on teie vend, on ta teile veel enam kui ligimene, keda Isa käsib armastada nagu iseennast. Venda, kes kuulub su oma perre, sa mitte ainult ei armasta perekondliku kiindumusega, vaid ka teenid nagu iseennast. Ja te armastate ja teenite oma venda nii seepärast, et mina olen teid, oma vendi, selliselt armastanud ja teeninud. Minge siis kõik laiali üle kogu maailma ja rääkige seda head sõnumit igaühele kõigi rasside, hõimude ja rahvaste seas. Minu vaim käib teie ees ja ma olen alati teiega.”

193:1.2 (2053.4) “Peace be upon you. You rejoice to know that I am the resurrection and the life, but this will avail you nothing unless you are first born of the eternal spirit, thereby coming to possess, by faith, the gift of eternal life. If you are the faith sons of my Father, you shall never die; you shall not perish. The gospel of the kingdom has taught you that all men are the sons of God. And this good news concerning the love of the heavenly Father for his children on earth must be carried to all the world. The time has come when you worship God neither on Gerizim nor at Jerusalem, but where you are, as you are, in spirit and in truth. It is your faith that saves your souls. Salvation is the gift of God to all who believe they are his sons. But be not deceived; while salvation is the free gift of God and is bestowed upon all who accept it by faith, there follows the experience of bearing the fruits of this spirit life as it is lived in the flesh. The acceptance of the doctrine of the fatherhood of God implies that you also freely accept the associated truth of the brotherhood of man. And if man is your brother, he is even more than your neighbor, whom the Father requires you to love as yourself. Your brother, being of your own family, you will not only love with a family affection, but you will also serve as you would serve yourself. And you will thus love and serve your brother because you, being my brethren, have been thus loved and served by me. Go, then, into all the world telling this good news to all creatures of every race, tribe, and nation. My spirit shall go before you, and I will be with you always.”

Meistri ilmumine hämmastas samaarlasi väga ning nad kiirustasid lähimatesse linnadesse ja küladesse levitama uudist, et on näinud Jeesust, kes nendega kõneles. See oli Meistri seitsmeteistkümnes morontiailmumine.

193:1.3 (2054.1) These Samaritans were greatly astonished at this appearance of the Master, and they hastened off to the near-by towns and villages, where they published abroad the news that they had seen Jesus, and that he had talked to them. And this was the seventeenth morontia appearance of the Master.

2. Ilmumine Foiniikias

2. The Phoenician Appearance

Meistri kaheksateistkümnes morontiailmumine toimus teisipäeval, 16. mail Tüüroses veidi enne kella üheksat õhtul. Ta ilmus jälle uskujate koosoleku lõpus, kui rahvas hakkas juba laiali minema, ja ütles:

193:2.1 (2054.2) The Master’s eighteenth morontia appearance was at Tyre, on Tuesday, May 16, at a little before nine o’clock in the evening. Again he appeared at the close of a meeting of believers, as they were about to disperse, saying:

„Rahu olgu teiega. Teid rõõmustab teadmine, et Inimese Poeg on surnuist üles tõusnud, sest tänu sellele teate, et ka teie jääte koos oma vendadega pärast sureliku surma ellu. Ent ellujäämine sõltub sellest, kas te olete enne seda sündinud tõeotsimise ja Jumala leidmise vaimust. Eluleiba ja -vett antakse vaid neile, kes janunevad tõe ja õigluse — Jumala järele. Tõsiasi, et surnud üles tõusevad, ei ole veel taevariigi evangeelium. Kõik need suured tõed ja kõiksed faktid on selles suhtes evangeeliumiga seotud, et kuuluvad hea sõnumi uskumise tulemustesse ja nende uskujate hilisemasse kogemusse, kellest saavad usu kaudu teos ja tões igavese Jumala igikestvad pojad. Mu Isa saatis mind maailma kuulutama oma poegade pääsemist kõigile inimestele. Ja nii saadan ka mina teid välja jutlustama poegade pääsemist. Pääsemine on Jumala tasuta kingitus, ent vaimust sündinud hakkavad kohe kandma vaimuvilju, teenides armastavalt loodud-olenditest kaaslasi. Vaimust sündinud ja Jumalat tundvate surelike elus ilmnevad jumaliku vaimu viljad on armastav teenimine, isetu pühendumine, julge ustavus, siiras õiglus, valgustatud ausus, kustumatu lootus, kindel usaldus, halastav hoolekanne, vankumatu headus, andestav sallivus ja püsiv rahu. Kui end uskujaks tunnistanud inimesed ei kanna oma elus neid jumaliku vaimu vilju, on nad surnud; neis pole Tõe Vaimu; nad on elava viinapuu kasutud oksad, mis peagi eemaldatakse. Minu Isa nõuab usulastelt, et nad rohket vaimuvilja kannaksid. Seega, kui te ei ole viljakad, kaevab ta teie juured välja ja lõikab teie viljatud oksad maha. Mida enam te jumalariigis taeva poole liigute, seda enam peate kandma vaimuvilju. Taevariiki võite astuda lapsena, kuid Isa nõuab teilt kasvamist armu kaudu vaimsesse täiskasvanuikka. Ja kui te lähete välja kõigile rahvastele taevariigi kohta head sõnumit kuulutama, sammun mina teie ees ja minu Tõe Vaim jääb teie südameisse. Ma jätan teiega oma rahu.”

193:2.2 (2054.3) “Peace be upon you. You rejoice to know that the Son of Man has risen from the dead because you thereby know that you and your brethren shall also survive mortal death. But such survival is dependent on your having been previously born of the spirit of truth-seeking and God-finding. The bread of life and the water thereof are given only to those who hunger for truth and thirst for righteousness — for God. The fact that the dead rise is not the gospel of the kingdom. These great truths and these universe facts are all related to this gospel in that they are a part of the result of believing the good news and are embraced in the subsequent experience of those who, by faith, become, in deed and in truth, the everlasting sons of the eternal God. My Father sent me into the world to proclaim this salvation of sonship to all men. And so send I you abroad to preach this salvation of sonship. Salvation is the free gift of God, but those who are born of the spirit will immediately begin to show forth the fruits of the spirit in loving service to their fellow creatures. And the fruits of the divine spirit which are yielded in the lives of spirit-born and God-knowing mortals are: loving service, unselfish devotion, courageous loyalty, sincere fairness, enlightened honesty, undying hope, confiding trust, merciful ministry, unfailing goodness, forgiving tolerance, and enduring peace. If professed believers bear not these fruits of the divine spirit in their lives, they are dead; the Spirit of Truth is not in them; they are useless branches on the living vine, and they soon will be taken away. My Father requires of the children of faith that they bear much spirit fruit. If, therefore, you are not fruitful, he will dig about your roots and cut away your unfruitful branches. Increasingly, must you yield the fruits of the spirit as you progress heavenward in the kingdom of God. You may enter the kingdom as a child, but the Father requires that you grow up, by grace, to the full stature of spiritual adulthood. And when you go abroad to tell all nations the good news of this gospel, I will go before you, and my Spirit of Truth shall abide in your hearts. My peace I leave with you.”

Ja siis kadus Meister neil silmist. Järgmisel päeval lahkusid Tüürosest inimesed, kes kandsid selle loo edasi Siidonini ja isegi Antiookiani ja Damaskuseni. Jeesus oli käinud inimesena nende uskujate juures ja nad tundsid Meistri ruttu ära, kui ta neid õpetama hakkas. Ta sõpradel läks küll nähtava morontiakuju äratundmisega veidi aega, aga kui ta rääkima hakkas, tundsid nad tema isiksuse alati kiiresti ära.

193:2.3 (2054.4) And then the Master disappeared from their sight. The next day there went out from Tyre those who carried this story to Sidon and even to Antioch and Damascus. Jesus had been with these believers when he was in the flesh, and they were quick to recognize him when he began to teach them. While his friends could not readily recognize his morontia form when made visible, they were never slow to identify his personality when he spoke to them.

3. Viimane ilmumine Jeruusalemmas

3. Last Appearance in Jerusalem

Neljapäeva, 18. mai varahommikul ilmus Jeesus maa peal morontiaisiksusena viimast korda. Kui üksteist apostlit hakkasid Maarja Markuse maja ülakambris just hommikust sööma, ilmus Jeesus nende juurde ja ütles:

193:3.1 (2055.1) Early Thursday morning, May 18, Jesus made his last appearance on earth as a morontia personality. As the eleven apostles were about to sit down to breakfast in the upper chamber of Mary Mark’s home, Jesus appeared to them and said:

„Rahu olgu teiega. Palusin teil seniks siia Jeruusalemma jääda, kuni ma veel Isa juurde pole tõusnud ja teile Tõe Vaimu saatnud, kes peagi kogu liha peale välja valatakse ja teile kõrgelt väge annab.” Seloot Siimon katkestas Jeesust, küsides: „Kas sa, Meister, taastad siis kuningriigi ja me näeme Jumala auhiilguse avaldumist maa peal?” Kui Jeesus oli Siimoni küsimuse ära kuulanud, vastas ta: „Siimon, sa oled ikka veel kinni oma vanades ideedes juudi messiast ja ainelisest kuningriigist. Aga kui vaim on teie peale laskunud, saate vaimujõudu ja lähete peagi kogu maailma seda taevariigi evangeeliumi kuulutama. Ja nii nagu Isa mind siia maailma saatis, saadan ka mina teid. Ja ma soovin, et te üksteist armastaksite ja usaldaksite. Juudast pole enam teie seas, sest tema armastus jahtus ja ta keeldus teid, oma ustavaid vendi, usaldamast. Kas te pole pühakirjast lugenud kohta, kus on kirjutatud: „Inimesel pole hea olla üksi. Mitte keegi ei ela iseenesele”? Ja ka seda kohta, kus öeldakse: „Kes tahab sõpru leida, peab end sõbralikult ülal pidama”? Kas ma ei saatnud teid alati kahekaupa õpetama, et te ei tunneks üksindust ega langeks eraldatuse hätta ja viletsusse? Te teate hästi sedagi, et kui mina olin inimene, ei lubanud ma ka endal kaua järjest üksi olla. Meie tutvuse algusest saadik olid kaks-kolm teie seast alati minu kõrval või väga lähedal käepärast isegi siis, kui ma Isaga vestlesin. Seega usaldage üksteist. Ja seda on vaja seda enam, et ma jätan teid täna maailma üksi. Tund on tulnud, ma lähen nüüd Isa juurde.”

193:3.2 (2055.2) “Peace be upon you. I have asked you to tarry here in Jerusalem until I ascend to the Father, even until I send you the Spirit of Truth, who shall soon be poured out upon all flesh, and who shall endow you with power from on high.” Simon Zelotes interrupted Jesus, asking, “Then, Master, will you restore the kingdom, and will we see the glory of God manifested on earth?” When Jesus had listened to Simon’s question, he answered: “Simon, you still cling to your old ideas about the Jewish Messiah and the material kingdom. But you will receive spiritual power after the spirit has descended upon you, and you will presently go into all the world preaching this gospel of the kingdom. As the Father sent me into the world, so do I send you. And I wish that you would love and trust one another. Judas is no more with you because his love grew cold, and because he refused to trust you, his loyal brethren. Have you not read in the Scripture where it is written: ‘It is not good for man to be alone. No man lives to himself’? And also where it says: ‘He who would have friends must show himself friendly’? And did I not even send you out to teach, two and two, that you might not become lonely and fall into the mischief and miseries of isolation? You also well know that, when I was in the flesh, I did not permit myself to be alone for long periods. From the very beginning of our associations I always had two or three of you constantly by my side or else very near at hand even when I communed with the Father. Trust, therefore, and confide in one another. And this is all the more needful since I am this day going to leave you alone in the world. The hour has come; I am about to go to the Father.”

Seda öelnud, kutsus ta nad käeviipega kaasa ja viis välja Õlimäele, kus enne Urantialt lahkumist nendega hüvasti jättis. See Õlimäele minek oli pühalik toiming. Ülakambrist lahkumisest kuni Õlimäele jõudmiseni, kus Jeesus nendega seisma jäi, ei lausutud ühtegi sõna.

193:3.3 (2055.3) When he had spoken, he beckoned for them to come with him, and he led them out on the Mount of Olives, where he bade them farewell preparatory to departing from Urantia. This was a solemn journey to Olivet. Not a word was spoken by any of them from the time they left the upper chamber until Jesus paused with them on the Mount of Olives.

4. Juuda languse põhjused

4. Causes of Judas’s Downfall

Oma hüvastijätusõnumi esimeses pooles tuletas Meister apostlitele meelde Juuda kaotust ja seadis nende äraandjast kaastöölise traagilise saatuse pühalikuks hoiatuseks ühiskonnast ja vendadest eraldumise ohtude eest. Selle ja tulevaste ajastute uskujate jaoks on vast kasulik vaadelda lühidalt Juuda languse põhjusi, võttes arvesse Meistri märkusi ja hilisemate sajandite jooksul ilmnenut.

193:4.1 (2055.4) It was in the first part of the Master’s farewell message to his apostles that he alluded to the loss of Judas and held up the tragic fate of their traitorous fellow worker as a solemn warning against the dangers of social and fraternal isolation. It may be helpful to believers, in this and in future ages, briefly to review the causes of Judas’s downfall in the light of the Master’s remarks and in view of the accumulated enlightenment of succeeding centuries.

Nüüd sellele tragöödiale tagasi vaadates näeme, et Juudas sattus eksiteele eeskätt seepärast, et oli isiksusena teistest märgatavalt eraldi, endasse sulgunud ja eemal tavalistest sotsiaalsetest kontaktidest. Ta keeldus järjekindlalt kaasapostlitele oma mõtteid usaldamast ning nendega vabalt ja vennalikult suhtlemast. Ent eraklik loomus üksi poleks Juudale nii palju häda kaela toonud, kui ta armastus oleks suurenenud ja ta ise vaimses armus kasvanud. Asja tegi halvemaks ka see, et ta pidas vimma ja soosis selliseid psühholoogilisi vaenlasi nagu kättemaksuiha ja üldine soov kellelegi kõigi oma pettumuste eest „tagasi teha”.

193:4.2 (2055.5) As we look back upon this tragedy, we conceive that Judas went wrong, primarily, because he was very markedly an isolated personality, a personality shut in and away from ordinary social contacts. He persistently refused to confide in, or freely fraternize with, his fellow apostles. But his being an isolated type of personality would not, in and of itself, have wrought such mischief for Judas had it not been that he also failed to increase in love and grow in spiritual grace. And then, as if to make a bad matter worse, he persistently harbored grudges and fostered such psychologic enemies as revenge and the generalized craving to “get even” with somebody for all his disappointments.

See individuaalsete iseärasuste ja meele kalduvuste kahetsusväärne kombinatsioon viiski hävingule heade kavatsustega mehe, kes ei suutnud neid pahesid armastuse, usu ja usaldusega alistada. Seda, et Juudas poleks tarvitsenud eksiteele sattuda, tõendasid hästi Toomas ja Naatanael, keda painasid samasugune kahtlustamiskalduvus ja üliarenenud individualism. Ka Andreas ja Matteus kaldusid paljus sellesse suunda. Aga need mehed hakkasid aja möödudes Jeesust ja oma apostlitest kaaslasi üha enam, mitte üha vähem armastama. Nende armastus ja tõetundmine kasvasid. Nad lootsid oma vendadele üha rohkem ja omandasid aegamööda võime oma mõtteid kaaslastele usaldada. Juudas keeldus järjekindlalt oma vendadega usalduslikult vestlemast. Kui temas kuhjusid emotsionaalsed konfliktid, sundides teda siiski end avama, et leevendust leida, küsis ta alati nõu ja sai ebamõistlikku lohutust oma vaimsuseta sugulastelt või juhuslikelt tuttavatelt, kes olid taevariigi vaimsete reaalsuste hea käekäigu ja edenemise suhtes kas ükskõiksed või lausa vaenulikud, ehkki ta ise oli üks kaheteistkümnest selle taevariigi ametissepühitsetud saadikust maa peal.

193:4.3 (2056.1) This unfortunate combination of individual peculiarities and mental tendencies conspired to destroy a well-intentioned man who failed to subdue these evils by love, faith, and trust. That Judas need not have gone wrong is well proved by the cases of Thomas and Nathaniel, both of whom were cursed with this same sort of suspicion and overdevelopment of the individualistic tendency. Even Andrew and Matthew had many leanings in this direction; but all these men grew to love Jesus and their fellow apostles more, and not less, as time passed. They grew in grace and in a knowledge of the truth. They became increasingly more trustful of their brethren and slowly developed the ability to confide in their fellows. Judas persistently refused to confide in his brethren. When he was impelled, by the accumulation of his emotional conflicts, to seek relief in self-expression, he invariably sought the advice and received the unwise consolation of his unspiritual relatives or those chance acquaintances who were either indifferent, or actually hostile, to the welfare and progress of the spiritual realities of the heavenly kingdom, of which he was one of the twelve consecrated ambassadors on earth.

Juuda maise võitluse lahingud lõppesid lüüasaamisega tema järgmiste kalduvuste ja iseloomunõrkuste tõttu:

193:4.4 (2056.2) Judas met defeat in his battles of the earth struggle because of the following factors of personal tendencies and character weakness:

1. ta oli erakliku loomuga inimolend. Ta oli väga individualistlik ja kujunes endassesulgunud ning seltsimatuks isikuks;

193:4.5 (2056.3) 1. He was an isolated type of human being. He was highly individualistic and chose to grow into a confirmed “shut-in” and unsociable sort of person.

2. lapsena oli elu tema jaoks liiga kergeks tehtud. Ta pani ägedalt pahaks, kui keegi teda milleski takistas. Ta soovis alati võita, ta oli väga halb kaotaja;

193:4.6 (2056.4) 2. As a child, life had been made too easy for him. He bitterly resented thwarting. He always expected to win; he was a very poor loser.

3. mitte kunagi ei omandanud ta filosoofilist meetodit pettumustega toimetulemiseks. Selle asemel et pidada pettumusi inimeksistentsi tavaliseks paratamatuks jooneks, hakkas ta alati oma isiklikes raskustes ja pettumustes kas kedagi konkreetselt või oma kaaslasi üldiselt süüdistama;

193:4.7 (2056.5) 3. He never acquired a philosophic technique for meeting disappointment. Instead of accepting disappointments as a regular and commonplace feature of human existence, he unfailingly resorted to the practice of blaming someone in particular, or his associates as a group, for all his personal difficulties and disappointments.

4. ta kaldus vimma pidama, ta haudus alati kättemaksu;

193:4.8 (2056.6) 4. He was given to holding grudges; he was always entertaining the idea of revenge.

5. talle ei meeldinud tõsiasjadele silma vaadata ja tema ellusuhtumine polnud siiras;

193:4.9 (2056.7) 5. He did not like to face facts frankly; he was dishonest in his attitude toward life situations.

6. talle ei meeldinud arutada isiklikke probleeme oma lähimate kaaslastega; ta keeldus rääkimast oma raskustest tõeliste sõpradega ja nendega, kes teda tõesti armastasid. Kõigi koosoldud aastate jooksul ei läinud ta kordagi Meistri juurde puhtisikliku probleemiga;

193:4.10 (2056.8) 6. He disliked to discuss his personal problems with his immediate associates; he refused to talk over his difficulties with his real friends and those who truly loved him. In all the years of their association he never once went to the Master with a purely personal problem.

7. talle ei saanudki selgeks, et ülla elu tõelised hüvitised on siiski vaimsed tasud, mida alati ei jagata selle ühe lühikese maise elu jooksul.

193:4.11 (2056.9) 7. He never learned that the real rewards for noble living are, after all, spiritual prizes, which are not always distributed during this one short life in the flesh.

Isiksuse pideva eraldatuse tagajärjel tema mured mitmekordistusid, kurbus kasvas, ärevus suurenes ja meeleheide süvenes peaaegu talumatuks.

193:4.12 (2056.10) As a result of his persistent isolation of personality, his griefs multiplied, his sorrows increased, his anxieties augmented, and his despair deepened almost beyond endurance.

Ehkki sellel enesekesksel ja üliindividualistlikul apostlil oli palju psüühilisi, emotsionaalseid ja vaimseid hädasid, olid tema põhiraskused järgmised: isiksusena oli ta eraldihoidev, meele poolest kahtlustav ja kättemaksuhimuline, loomult pahur ja vihakandev, emotsionaalselt aga sallimatu ja andestamatu; sotsiaalselt oli ta seltsimatu ja peaaegu täiesti enesessesulgunud, vaimult muutus kõrgiks ja isekalt auahneks; ta eiras eluajal neid, kes teda armastasid, ja jäi surmas sõpradeta.

193:4.13 (2057.1) While this self-centered and ultraindividualistic apostle had many psychic, emotional, and spiritual troubles, his main difficulties were: In personality, he was isolated. In mind, he was suspicious and vengeful. In temperament, he was surly and vindictive. Emotionally, he was loveless and unforgiving. Socially, he was unconfiding and almost wholly self-contained. In spirit, he became arrogant and selfishly ambitious. In life, he ignored those who loved him, and in death, he was friendless.

Need meelega seotud tegurid ja halvad mõjud seletavad kokkuvõttes, miks heade kavatsustega ja kunagi siiralt Jeesusesse uskunud inimene pärast mitmeaastast lähedast suhtlemist selle uueks muutva isiksusega oma kaaslased hülgas, pühast üritusest lahti ütles, oma pühast kutsumusest loobus ja jumaliku Meistri reetis.

193:4.14 (2057.2) These, then, are the factors of mind and influences of evil which, taken altogether, explain why a well-meaning and otherwise onetime sincere believer in Jesus, even after several years of intimate association with his transforming personality, forsook his fellows, repudiated a sacred cause, renounced his holy calling, and betrayed his divine Master.

5. Meistri taevassetõusmine

5. The Master’s Ascension

Kell hakkas tolle neljapäeva, 18. mai hommikul pool kaheksa saama, kui Jeesus jõudis oma üheteistkümne vaikiva ja mõnevõrra hämmeldunud apostliga Õlimäe läänenõlvale. Selles paigas, kus ligikaudu kaks kolmandikku teest ülesmäkke oli käidud, võisid nad vaadata üle kogu Jeruusalemma ja alla Ketsemanile. Nüüd valmistus Jeesus enne Urantialt lahkumist viimast korda apostlitega hüvasti jätma. Kui Meister seal nende ees seisis, põlvitasid nad käskimata ringi ümber tema ja ta ütles:

193:5.1 (2057.3) It was almost half past seven o’clock this Thursday morning, May 18, when Jesus arrived on the western slope of Mount Olivet with his eleven silent and somewhat bewildered apostles. From this location, about two thirds the way up the mountain, they could look out over Jerusalem and down upon Gethsemane. Jesus now prepared to say his last farewell to the apostles before he took leave of Urantia. As he stood there before them, without being directed they knelt about him in a circle, and the Master said:

„Käskisin teil jääda Jeruusalemma, kuni teile kõrgemalt väge antakse. Nüüd lahkun ma teie seast, tõusen oma Isa juurde ja saadan varsti, väga varsti Tõe Vaimu sellesse maailma, kus viibisin; ja kui ta on tulnud, peate hakkama uuesti taevariigi evangeeliumi kuulutama, algul Jeruusalemmas ja siis kõikjal kuni maailma kaugeimate paikadeni välja. Armastage inimesi armastusega, millega mina teid olen armastanud, ja teenige oma kaassurelikke nii, nagu mina olen teid teeninud. Ergutage oma elu vaimuviljadega hingi uskuma tõde, et inimene on Jumala poeg ning et kõik inimesed on vennad. Pidage meeles kõike, mis ma olen teile õpetanud, ja elu, mis ma olen teie seas elanud. Minu armastus on varjuna teie kohal, mu vaim hakkab elama teie sisimas ja mu rahu jääb teiega. Hüvasti.”

193:5.2 (2057.4) “I bade you tarry in Jerusalem until you were endowed with power from on high. I am now about to take leave of you; I am about to ascend to my Father, and soon, very soon, will we send into this world of my sojourn the Spirit of Truth; and when he has come, you shall begin the new proclamation of the gospel of the kingdom, first in Jerusalem and then to the uttermost parts of the world. Love men with the love wherewith I have loved you and serve your fellow mortals even as I have served you. By the spirit fruits of your lives impel souls to believe the truth that man is a son of God, and that all men are brethren. Remember all I have taught you and the life I have lived among you. My love overshadows you, my spirit will dwell with you, and my peace shall abide upon you. Farewell.”

Seda öelnud, kadus Meistri morontiakuju nende silmist. See Jeesuse niinimetatud taevaminek ei erinenud mitte millegi poolest teistest kadumistest surelike silmist tema neljakümnepäevase morontiaelujärgu ajal Urantial.

193:5.3 (2057.5) When the morontia Master had thus spoken, he vanished from their sight. This so-called ascension of Jesus was in no way different from his other disappearances from mortal vision during the forty days of his morontia career on Urantia.

Meister läks Edentiasse Jerusemi kaudu, kus Kõigekõrgemad vabastasid Paradiisi-Poja järelevalve all Jeesus Naatsaretlase morontiaseisundist ja taastasid taevatõusmise vaimukanalite kaudu tema seisundi Paradiisi-Pojana ja Salvingtoni ülima suveräänina.

193:5.4 (2057.6) The Master went to Edentia by way of Jerusem, where the Most Highs, under the observation of the Paradise Son, released Jesus of Nazareth from the morontia state and, through the spirit channels of ascension, returned him to the status of Paradise sonship and supreme sovereignty on Salvington.

Tol hommikul kella kolmveerand kaheksa paiku kadus Jeesuse morontiakuju oma üheteistkümne apostli silmist, et alustada tõusu Isa paremale käele ja saada seal ametlik kinnitus Nebadoni universumi lõplikule suverääniseisusele.

193:5.5 (2057.7) It was about seven forty-five this morning when the morontia Jesus disappeared from the observation of his eleven apostles to begin the ascent to the right hand of his Father, there to receive formal confirmation of his completed sovereignty of the universe of Nebadon.

6. Peetrus kutsub kokku koosoleku

6. Peter Calls a Meeting

Peetruse käsul läksid Johannes Markus ja teised juhtivaid jüngreid Maarja Markuse majja kokku kutsuma. Kella poole üheteistkümneks olid sada kakskümmend tähtsaimat Jeesuse Jeruusalemmas elavat jüngrit tulnud kuulama teateid Meistri hüvastijätusõnumist ja taevatõusmisest. Nende hulgas oli ka Jeesuse ema Maarja. Ta oli koos Johannes Sebedeusega tagasi tulnud siis, kui apostlid naasid oma hiljutiselt reisilt Galileasse. Varsti pärast nelipühi pöördus ta tagasi Saloome majja Betsaidas. Sellel jüngrite esimesel koosolekul pärast Jeesuse planeedi-elujärgu lõpulejõudmist viibis ka Jeesuse vend Jaakobus.

193:6.1 (2057.8) Acting upon the instruction of Peter, John Mark and others went forth to call the leading disciples together at the home of Mary Mark. By ten thirty, one hundred and twenty of the foremost disciples of Jesus living in Jerusalem had forgathered to hear the report of the farewell message of the Master and to learn of his ascension. Among this company was Mary the mother of Jesus. She had returned to Jerusalem with John Zebedee when the apostles came back from their recent sojourn in Galilee. Soon after Pentecost she returned to the home of Salome at Bethsaida. James the brother of Jesus was also present at this meeting, the first conference of the Master’s disciples to be called after the termination of his planetary career.

Siimon Peetrus võttis kõigi apostlite nimel kõnelemise enda peale ja tegi vapustava ettekande üheteistkümne viimasest kohtumisest Meistriga, kirjeldades väga liigutavalt Meistri lõplikku hüvastijättu ja taevasse minekut. See oli koosolek, mille sarnast polnud selles maailmas seni veel toimunud. See osa koosolekust kestis peaaegu tund aega. Seejärel selgitas Peetrus, et nad olid otsustanud valida kedagi Juudas Iskarioti asemele, ning kuulutas välja vaheaja, mille jooksul apostlid pidid otsustama, kumb kahest sellele ametikohale pakutud mehest valida — Mattias või Justus.

193:6.2 (2058.1) Simon Peter took it upon himself to speak for his fellow apostles and made a thrilling report of the last meeting of the eleven with their Master and most touchingly portrayed the Master’s final farewell and his ascension disappearance. It was a meeting the like of which had never before occurred on this world. This part of the meeting lasted not quite one hour. Peter then explained that they had decided to choose a successor to Judas Iscariot, and that a recess would be granted to enable the apostles to decide between the two men who had been suggested for this position, Matthias and Justus.

Siis läksid üksteist apostlit trepist alla ja otsustasid heita liisku, kumb mees peaks Juuda asemel apostlina teenima hakkama. Liisk langes Mattiasele ja tema kuuluta tigi uueks apostliks. Ta seati korrakohaselt ametisse ning määrati varahoidjaks. Kuid Mattiase roll apostlite hilisemas tegevuses jäi väga väikeseks.

193:6.3 (2058.2) The eleven apostles then went downstairs, where they agreed to cast lots in order to determine which of these men should become an apostle to serve in Judas’s place. The lot fell on Matthias, and he was declared to be the new apostle. He was duly inducted into his office and then appointed treasurer. But Matthias had little part in the subsequent activities of the apostles.

Varsti pärast nelipühi läksid kaksikud tagasi oma koju Galileasse. Ka seloot Siimon jäi mõneks ajaks koju, enne kui suundus evangeeliumi jutlustama. Toomas oli veidi aega rahutu ja jätkas siis õpetamist. Naatanaelil olid Peetrusega üha suuremad lahkarvamused, sest taevariigi evangeeliumi kuulutamise asemel jutlustas Peetrus Jeesusest. Järgmise kuu keskpaigaks muutusid need lahkhelid nii ägedaks, et Naatanael tõmbus kõrvale ja läks Filadelfiasse Abnerit ning Laatsarust külastama. Viibinud umbes aasta Filadelfias, suundus ta teisele poole Mesopotaamiat kuulutama evangeeliumi, nagu tema sellest aru sai.

193:6.4 (2058.3) Soon after Pentecost the twins returned to their homes in Galilee. Simon Zelotes was in retirement for some time before he went forth preaching the gospel. Thomas worried for a shorter period and then resumed his teaching. Nathaniel differed increasingly with Peter regarding preaching about Jesus in the place of proclaiming the former gospel of the kingdom. This disagreement became so acute by the middle of the following month that Nathaniel withdrew, going to Philadelphia to visit Abner and Lazarus; and after tarrying there for more than a year, he went on into the lands beyond Mesopotamia preaching the gospel as he understood it.

Nii jäid Jeruusalemma evangeeliumi kuulutama kaheteistkümnest esialgsest apostlist ainult kuus: Peetrus, Andreas, Jaakobus, Johannes, Filippus ja Matteus.

193:6.5 (2058.4) This left but six of the original twelve apostles to become actors on the stage of the early proclamation of the gospel in Jerusalem: Peter, Andrew, James, John, Philip, and Matthew.

Keskpäeva paiku läksid apostlid ülakambrisse oma vendade juurde tagasi ja teatasid, et Mattias oli apostliks valitud. Siis kutsus Peetrus kõiki uskujaid üles palvetama, et nad oleksid valmis vastu võtma vaimu, mille Meister oli lubanud neile kingiks saata.

193:6.6 (2058.5) Just about noon the apostles returned to their brethren in the upper chamber and announced that Matthias had been chosen as the new apostle. And then Peter called all of the believers to engage in prayer, prayer that they might be prepared to receive the gift of the spirit which the Master had promised to send.





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