URANTIA RAAMAT - 126. Kiri. Kaks otsustavat aastat

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IV OSA: Jeesuse elu ja Õpetused



126. Kiri. Kaks otsustavat aastat

Paper 126 : The Two Crucial Years

KÕIGIST Jeesuse maise elu kogemustest olid kõige otsustavamad tema neljateistkümnes ja viieteistkümnes eluaasta. Need kaks aastat pärast seda, kui ta hakkas saama teadlikuks oma jumalikkusest ja ettemääratusest, ning enne kui ta saavutas üsna tugeva kontakti oma sisimas elava Kohandajaga, olid tema sündmusrikkas elus Urantial kõige kurnavamad. Neid kaht aastat tuleb pidada suureks katsumuseks ja tõeliseks kiusatuseks. Ükski noor inimene pole oma noorukiea varaste segaduste ja kohanemisprobleemide käigus teinud läbi otsustavamat katsumust kui Jeesus üleminekul lapsepõlvest noormeheikka.

126:0.1 (1386.1) OF ALL Jesus’ earth-life experiences, the fourteenth and fifteenth years were the most crucial. These two years, after he began to be self-conscious of divinity and destiny, and before he achieved a large measure of communication with his indwelling Adjuster, were the most trying of his eventful life on Urantia. It is this period of two years which should be called the great test, the real temptation. No human youth, in passing through the early confusions and adjustment problems of adolescence, ever experienced a more crucial testing than that which Jesus passed through during his transition from childhood to young manhood.

See tähtis periood noore Jeesuse arengus algas Jeruusalemma-reisi lõpu ja Naatsaretti tagasipöördumisega. Alguses tundis Maarja rõõmu mõttest, et tema poeg on jälle tagasi, et Jeesus naasis koju, olemaks sõnakuulelik poeg — mitte et ta oleks kunagi teistsugune olnud —, ning et ta suhtus nüüd leplikumalt ema plaanidesse tema tulevase elu suhtes. Kuid talle polnud määratud kaua end selle emaliku eksiarvamuse ja teadvustamata perekondliku uhkustunde päikesepaistel soojendada, ta pidi üsna pea rängalt pettuma. Poiss viibis üha enam isa seltsis, ta tuli üha vähem oma probleemidega ema juurde, kuid mõlemale vanemale jäi ühtmoodi arusaamatuks poja sagedane libisemine maistelt asjadelt mõtisklustele oma Isa ülesannete täitmise üle. Nad ei saanud temast küll aru, kuid armastasid teda tõeliselt.

126:0.2 (1386.2) This important period in Jesus’ youthful development began with the conclusion of the Jerusalem visit and with his return to Nazareth. At first Mary was happy in the thought that she had her boy back once more, that Jesus had returned home to be a dutiful son — not that he was ever anything else — and that he would henceforth be more responsive to her plans for his future life. But she was not for long to bask in this sunshine of maternal delusion and unrecognized family pride; very soon she was to be more completely disillusioned. More and more the boy was in the company of his father; less and less did he come to her with his problems, while increasingly both his parents failed to comprehend his frequent alternation between the affairs of this world and the contemplation of his relation to his Father’s business. Frankly, they did not understand him, but they did truly love him.

Vanemaks saades tugevnes Jeesuse osavõtlikkus ja armastus juudi rahva vastu, kuid aastate möödudes arenes tema meeles välja õiglane pahameel riiklikult määratud preestrite viibimise üle Isa templis. Jeesus tundis suurt lugupidamist siirate variseride ja ausate kirjatundjate vastu, kuid silmakirjalikke varisere ja ebaausaid teolooge ta põlgas. Ta põlastas kõiki neid usujuhte, kes polnud siirad. Iisraeli juhte tundma õppides tekkis tal mõnikord kiusatus kasutada võimalust saada juutide oodatud messiaks, kuid ta ei andnud sellele kiusatusele kunagi järele.

126:0.3 (1386.3) As he grew older, Jesus’ pity and love for the Jewish people deepened, but with the passing years, there developed in his mind a growing righteous resentment of the presence in the Father’s temple of the politically appointed priests. Jesus had great respect for the sincere Pharisees and the honest scribes, but he held the hypocritical Pharisees and the dishonest theologians in great contempt; he looked with disdain upon all those religious leaders who were not sincere. When he scrutinized the leadership of Israel, he was sometimes tempted to look with favor on the possibility of his becoming the Messiah of Jewish expectation, but he never yielded to such a temptation.

Lood tema kangelastegudest Jeruusalemma templi tarkade seas olid meelepärased kogu Naatsaretile, eriti aga tema endistele õpetajatele sünagoogikoolist. Mõnda aega tuli kõigi huulilt tema kohta vaid kiitust. Kogu küla rääkis sellest, kui tark ja kiidu väärt käitumisega laps ta oli olnud, ning ennustas talle Iisraeli suureks juhiks saamist; lõpuks pidi Galileast, Naatsaretist tulema tõeliselt suur õpetaja. Ning nad kõik ootasid, et ta saaks juba viieteistkümneaastaseks ja tal lubataks sabati ajal regulaarselt sünagoogis pühakirju lugeda.

126:0.4 (1386.4) The story of his exploits among the wise men of the temple in Jerusalem was gratifying to all Nazareth, especially to his former teachers in the synagogue school. For a time his praise was on everybody’s lips. All the village recounted his childhood wisdom and praiseworthy conduct and predicted that he was destined to become a great leader in Israel; at last a really great teacher was to come out of Nazareth in Galilee. And they all looked forward to the time when he would be fifteen years of age so that he might be permitted regularly to read the Scriptures in the synagogue on the Sabbath day.

1. Tema neljateistkümnes eluaasta (8. a pKr)

1. His Fourteenth Year (A.D. 8)

Sel kalendriaastal saabus tema neljateistkümnes sünnipäev. Temast oli saanud hea kaelkookude valmistaja ning ta töötas hästi nii lõuendi kui ka nahaga. Temast oli kiiresti kujunemas ka osav puusepp ja mööblimeister. Sel suvel käis ta sageli Naatsaretist kirdes asuva mäe tipus palvetamas ja mediteerimas. Ta sai oma maapealse annetumise olemusest järk-järgult üha paremini teadlikuks.

126:1.1 (1387.1) This is the calendar year of his fourteenth birthday. He had become a good yoke maker and worked well with both canvas and leather. He was also rapidly developing into an expert carpenter and cabinetmaker. This summer he made frequent trips to the top of the hill to the northwest of Nazareth for prayer and meditation. He was gradually becoming more self-conscious of the nature of his bestowal on earth.

See mägi oli olnud veidi enam kui saja aasta eest Baali kõrgendik, nüüd oli see aga kuulsa Iisraeli pühamehe Siimeoni haud. Siimeoni mäe tipust vaatas Jeesus alla Naatsaretile ja selle ümbrusele. Ta silmitses Megiddot, meenutades lugu Egiptuse sõjaväe esimesest suurest võidust Aasias ning seda, kuidas üks teine samasugune sõjavägi alistas hiljem Juudamaa kuninga Hoosea. Kaugele ei jäänud ka Taanak, kus Deboora ja Baarak alistasid Siisera. Eemal võis ta näha Dothani künkaid, kus, nagu talle oli räägitud, vennad olid müünud Joosepi Egiptusesse orjaks. Siis libises ta pilk üle Eebali ja Gerisimi ja ta meenutas pärimusi Aabrahamist, Jaakobist ja Abimelekist. Nii meenutas ta oma isa Joosepi rahva ajaloosündmusi ja pärimusi ning mõtiskles nende üle.

126:1.2 (1387.2) This hill, a little more than one hundred years previously, had been the “high place of Baal,” and now it was the site of the tomb of Simeon, a reputed holy man of Israel. From the summit of this hill of Simeon, Jesus looked out over Nazareth and the surrounding country. He would gaze upon Megiddo and recall the story of the Egyptian army winning its first great victory in Asia; and how, later on, another such army defeated the Judean king Josiah. Not far away he could look upon Taanach, where Deborah and Barak defeated Sisera. In the distance he could view the hills of Dothan, where he had been taught Joseph’s brethren sold him into Egyptian slavery. He then would shift his gaze over to Ebal and Gerizim and recount to himself the traditions of Abraham, Jacob, and Abimelech. And thus he recalled and turned over in his mind the historic and traditional events of his father Joseph’s people.

Ta jätkas sünagoogiõpetajate juures õpinguid edasijõudnute lugemiskursustel ning õpetas ka oma vendi ja õdesid kodus edasi, sedamööda kuidas nad sobivasse vanusesse jõudsid.

126:1.3 (1387.3) He continued to carry on his advanced courses of reading under the synagogue teachers, and he also continued with the home education of his brothers and sisters as they grew up to suitable ages.

Aasta algul eraldas Joosep osa oma Naatsareti ja Kapernauma kinnisvarade tulust Jeesuse pika õppekursuse jaoks Jeruusalemmas; plaanide kohaselt pidi Jeesus minema Jeruusalemma järgmise aasta augustis, viieteistkümneaastaseks saades.

126:1.4 (1387.4) Early this year Joseph arranged to set aside the income from his Nazareth and Capernaum property to pay for Jesus’ long course of study at Jerusalem, it having been planned that he should go to Jerusalem in August of the following year when he would be fifteen years of age.

Selle aasta algul kahtlesid Joosep ja Maarja sageli oma esmasündinud poja määratud saatuses. Ta oli tõesti andekas ja armastusväärne laps, kuid nii raske oli temast aru saada ja teda mõista, samas ei juhtunud kunagi ka midagi erakordset ega imepärast. Uhke ema oli kümneid kordi hinge kinni pidades oodanud, et poeg saadaks korda midagi üleinimlikku või imepärast, kuid ta lootused purunesid alati, tuues kaasa kibeda pettumuse. Kõik see oli heidutav, isegi masendav. Tolle aja vagad inimesed uskusid tõesti, et prohvetid ja tõotatud inimesed näitavad oma kutsumust ja kehtestavad oma jumaliku võimu alati imetegusid korda saates. Kuid Jeesus ei teinud midagi niisugust, seepärast sattusid ta vanemad tema tulevikule mõeldes üha enam segadusse.

126:1.5 (1387.5) By the beginning of this year both Joseph and Mary entertained frequent doubts about the destiny of their first-born son. He was indeed a brilliant and lovable child, but he was so difficult to understand, so hard to fathom, and again, nothing extraordinary or miraculous ever happened. Scores of times had his proud mother stood in breathless anticipation, expecting to see her son engage in some superhuman or miraculous performance, but always were her hopes dashed down in cruel disappointment. And all this was discouraging, even disheartening. The devout people of those days truly believed that prophets and men of promise always demonstrated their calling and established their divine authority by performing miracles and working wonders. But Jesus did none of these things; wherefore was the confusion of his parents steadily increased as they contemplated his future.

Naatsareti pere majandusliku olukorra paranemine kajastus kodus paljudes asjades, eriti aga just söega kirjutamiseks mõeldud siledate valgete tahvlite rohkuses. Jeesusel lubati ka oma muusikatunde jätkata, ta armastas väga harfi mängida.

126:1.6 (1387.6) The improved economic condition of the Nazareth family was reflected in many ways about the home and especially in the increased number of smooth white boards which were used as writing slates, the writing being done with charcoal. Jesus was also permitted to resume his music lessons; he was very fond of playing the harp.

Kogu selle aasta kohta võib öelda, et Jeesus „edenes armus Jumala ja inimeste juures”. Perekonna tulevik näis paljutõotav ja helge.

126:1.7 (1387.7) Throughout this year it can truly be said that Jesus “grew in favor with man and with God.” The prospects of the family seemed good; the future was bright.

2. Joosepi surm

2. The Death of Joseph

Kõik läkski hästi kuni selle saatusliku teisipäeva, 25. septembrini, mil üks Sepphorisest saabunud jooksja tõi sellesse Naatsareti koju traagilise uudise, et Joosep on kuberneri residentsi ehitusel tõsteseadmelt alla kukkunud ja tõsiselt viga saanud. Sepphorise sõnumitooja oli teel Joosepi koju peatunud töökojas ja teatanud Jeesusele tema isaga juhtunud õnnetusest ning nad läksid koos koju Maarjale kurba uudist rääkima. Jeesus soovis kohe isa juurde minna, kuid Maarja ei võtnud teda kuulda, vaid tundis, et ta peab ise oma mehe juurde kiirustama. Ta käskis kümneaastasel Jaakobusel endaga Sepphorisesse kaasa tulla, Jeesuse jättis aga nende tagasitulekuni nooremate lastega koju, sest ei teadnud, kui tõsiselt Joosep on viga saanud. Kuid Joosep oli surnud vigastustesse veel enne, kui Maarja kohale jõudis. Nad tõid ta Naatsaretti ja järgmisel päeval seati ta oma esiisade juurde puhkama.

126:2.1 (1388.1) All did go well until that fateful day of Tuesday, September 25, when a runner from Sepphoris brought to this Nazareth home the tragic news that Joseph had been severely injured by the falling of a derrick while at work on the governor’s residence. The messenger from Sepphoris had stopped at the shop on the way to Joseph’s home, informing Jesus of his father’s accident, and they went together to the house to break the sad news to Mary. Jesus desired to go immediately to his father, but Mary would hear to nothing but that she must hasten to her husband’s side. She directed that James, then ten years of age, should accompany her to Sepphoris while Jesus remained home with the younger children until she should return, as she did not know how seriously Joseph had been injured. But Joseph died of his injuries before Mary arrived. They brought him to Nazareth, and on the following day he was laid to rest with his fathers.

Just siis, kui väljavaated olid head ja tulevik näis helge, langes selle Naatsareti pere kohale julm käsi, nende kodu paisati segi ja kõik Jeesuse enda ning tema edasiõppimisega seotud plaanid hävitati. Puusepapoiss, kes oli äsja saanud neljateistkümneaastaseks, sai aru, et tal tuleb küll täita oma taevase Isa ülesannet ilmutada maa peal ja lihas tema jumalikku olemust, aga tema inimlik olemus peab võtma oma õlule hoolitsemise lesestunud ema ja seitsme õe-venna ning ühe veel sündimata lapse eest. Naatsareti poisist kujunes nüüd selle nii äkki raske kaotuse osaliseks saanud pere ainus tugi ja lohutus. Nii lubati Urantial toimuda neil loomulikel sündmustel, mis sundisid seda määratud noormeest võtma varakult enda kanda need rasked, kuid väga õpetlikud ja distsiplineerivad kohustused, mis kaasnesid tema saamisega inimperekonna peaks, omaenda vendade ja õdede isaks, oma ema toetajaks, isakodu, selle tema jaoks maailma ainsa kodu kaitsjaks.

126:2.2 (1388.2) Just at the time when prospects were good and the future looked bright, an apparently cruel hand struck down the head of this Nazareth household, the affairs of this home were disrupted, and every plan for Jesus and his future education was demolished. This carpenter lad, now just past fourteen years of age, awakened to the realization that he had not only to fulfill the commission of his heavenly Father to reveal the divine nature on earth and in the flesh, but that his young human nature must also shoulder the responsibility of caring for his widowed mother and seven brothers and sisters — and another yet to be born. This lad of Nazareth now became the sole support and comfort of this so suddenly bereaved family. Thus were permitted those occurrences of the natural order of events on Urantia which would force this young man of destiny so early to assume these heavy but highly educational and disciplinary responsibilities attendant upon becoming the head of a human family, of becoming father to his own brothers and sisters, of supporting and protecting his mother, of functioning as guardian of his father’s home, the only home he was to know while on this world.

Jeesus võttis need nii äkki tema kanda langenud kohustused meelsasti vastu ja täitis neid ustavalt lõpuni. Vähemalt üks tema elu suur probleem ja kardetud raskus oli sel traagilisel moel lahenduse leidnud — enam ei oodatud, et ta Jeruusalemma rabide juurde õppima läheks. Alati jäi kehtima tõde, et Jeesus „ei istunud ühegi inimese jalge ees”. Ta oli valmis õppima ka kõige tähtsusetumalt väikelapselt, kuid ta ei omandanud kunagi õigust õpetada inimlikest allikatest saadud tõde.

126:2.3 (1388.3) Jesus cheerfully accepted the responsibilities so suddenly thrust upon him, and he carried them faithfully to the end. At least one great problem and anticipated difficulty in his life had been tragically solved — he would not now be expected to go to Jerusalem to study under the rabbis. It remained always true that Jesus “sat at no man’s feet.” He was ever willing to learn from even the humblest of little children, but he never derived authority to teach truth from human sources.

Ta ei teadnud ikka veel, et Gabriel oli külastanud tema ema enne ta sündi; ta kuulis seda alles Johanneselt oma ristimise päeval, oma avaliku teenistuse algul.

126:2.4 (1388.4) Still he knew nothing of the Gabriel visit to his mother before his birth; he only learned of this from John on the day of his baptism, at the beginning of his public ministry.

Aastate jooksul mõõtis noor Naatsareti puusepp iga ühiskondlikku institutsiooni ja iga usutava ühesuguse prooviga: mida teeb see inimhinge heaks? kas see toob Jumala inimese juurde? kas see toob inimese Jumala juurde? Too nooruk ei jätnud küll ka elu meelelahutuslikke ja seltskondlikke külgi päriselt hooletusse, kuid pühendas siiski üha enam aega ja energiat vaid kahe eesmärgi teenimisele: oma perekonna eest hoolitsemisele ja valmistumisele taevase Isa tahte täitmiseks maa peal.

126:2.5 (1388.5) As the years passed, this young carpenter of Nazareth increasingly measured every institution of society and every usage of religion by the unvarying test: What does it do for the human soul? does it bring God to man? does it bring man to God? While this youth did not wholly neglect the recreational and social aspects of life, more and more he devoted his time and energies to just two purposes: the care of his family and the preparation to do his Father’s heavenly will on earth.

Sel aastal kujunes naabritel kombeks astuda talveõhtutel nende juurde sisse, et kuulata, kuidas Jeesus harfi mängib, lugusid jutustab (sest poiss oli hea jutuvestja) ja kreekakeelseid pühakirju ette loeb.

126:2.6 (1389.1) This year it became the custom for the neighbors to drop in during the winter evenings to hear Jesus play upon the harp, to listen to his stories (for the lad was a master storyteller), and to hear him read from the Greek scriptures.

Perekonna majandusasjad läksid esialgu üsna ladusalt, sest Joosepi surres oli neil veel päris palju raha. Jeesus ilmutas varakult teravat ärivaistu ja oskust rahaga targalt ümber käia. Ta oli helde, kuid kokkuhoidlik; ta oli säästlik, kuid suuremeelne. Temast sai isa päranduse tark ja tegus haldaja.

126:2.7 (1389.2) The economic affairs of the family continued to run fairly smoothly as there was quite a sum of money on hand at the time of Joseph’s death. Jesus early demonstrated the possession of keen business judgment and financial sagacity. He was liberal but frugal; he was saving but generous. He proved to be a wise and efficient administrator of his father’s estate.

Ent vaatamata kõigele, mida Jeesus ja nende naabrid Naatsaretis püüdsid teha, et koju veidigi rõõmu tuua, ahistas Maarjat ja isegi lapsi kurbus. Joosepit ei olnud enam. Joosep oli olnud erakordne abikaasa ja isa ning nad kõik tundsid temast puudust. Ja seda traagilisem oli mõelda, et neil ei avanenud võimalust enne ta surma temaga rääkida ega talt hüvastijätuks õnnistust saada.

126:2.8 (1389.3) But in spite of all that Jesus and the Nazareth neighbors could do to bring cheer into the home, Mary, and even the children, were overcast with sadness. Joseph was gone. Joseph was an unusual husband and father, and they all missed him. And it seemed all the more tragic to think that he died ere they could speak to him or hear his farewell blessing.

3. Viieteistkümnes eluaasta (9. a pKr)

3. The Fifteenth Year (A.D. 9)

Viieteistkümnenda eluaasta keskel — me arvestame aega kahekümnenda sajandi kalendri, mitte juudi kalendri järgi — oli Jeesus juba asunud kindla käega oma pere elu juhtima. Enne kõnealuse aasta lõppu olid nende säästud peaaegu lõpukorral ja nad olid silmitsi vajadusega müüa üks neist Naatsareti majadest, mis olid Joosepi ning tema naabri Jaakobi ühine omand.

126:3.1 (1389.4) By the middle of this fifteenth year — and we are reckoning time in accordance with the twentieth-century calendar, not by the Jewish year — Jesus had taken a firm grasp upon the management of his family. Before this year had passed, their savings had about disappeared, and they were face to face with the necessity of disposing of one of the Nazareth houses which Joseph and his neighbor Jacob owned in partnership.

Kolmapäeva, 17. aprilli õhtul 9. a pKr sündis pere noorim laps Rutt ja Jeesus püüdis nii hästi kui suutis emale selle raske ja eriti kurva katsumuse ajal lohutust ja hoolitsust pakkuda. Ükski isa poleks osanud oma tütart südamlikumalt ja ustavamalt armastada ning kasvatada kui Jeesus peaaegu kakskümmend aastat (kuni avaliku teenistuse alguseni) väikese Ruti eest hoolitses. Ja ta oli ka kõigile teistele oma perekonna liikmetele sama hea isa.

126:3.2 (1389.5) On Wednesday evening, April 17, A.D. 9, Ruth, the baby of the family, was born, and to the best of his ability Jesus endeavored to take the place of his father in comforting and ministering to his mother during this trying and peculiarly sad ordeal. For almost a score of years (until he began his public ministry) no father could have loved and nurtured his daughter any more affectionately and faithfully than Jesus cared for little Ruth. And he was an equally good father to all the other members of his family.

Sel aastal sõnastas Jeesus esmakordselt palve, mida ta hiljem õpetas oma apostlitele ja mida paljud on hakanud nimetama „meie Isa palveks”. See kujunes teatud mõttes välja perekonnaaltari ees; neil oli palju palvevorme ja mitu kindla sõnastusega palvet. Pärast isa surma püüdis Jeesus õpetada vanematele lastele, kuidas sõnastada isiklikku palvet — talle endale meeldis seda väga teha —, kuid nad ei suutnud tema mõtteid jälgida ja pöördusid alati tagasi päheõpitud palvevormide juurde. Soovides suuremaid vendi ja õdesid ajendada isiklikke palveid ütlema, pakkus Jeesus neile eeskujuks üksikuid fraase ja peagi hakkasid nad kõik kasutama ilma seda tahtlikult kavatsemata sama palvevormi, mis koosnes suures osas neist Jeesuse õpetatud-soovitatud ridadest.

126:3.3 (1389.6) During this year Jesus first formulated the prayer which he subsequently taught to his apostles, and which to many has become known as “The Lord’s Prayer.” In a way it was an evolution of the family altar; they had many forms of praise and several formal prayers. After his father’s death Jesus tried to teach the older children to express themselves individually in prayer — much as he so enjoyed doing — but they could not grasp his thought and would invariably fall back upon their memorized prayer forms. It was in this effort to stimulate his older brothers and sisters to say individual prayers that Jesus would endeavor to lead them along by suggestive phrases, and presently, without intention on his part, it developed that they were all using a form of prayer which was largely built up from these suggestive lines which Jesus had taught them.

Lõpuks loobus Jeesus mõttest, et iga perekonnaliige peaks sõnastama spontaanseid palveid, ja ühel oktoobrikuu õhtul istus ta maadligi kivilaua äärde väikese madala lambi juurde ning kirjutas söega siledale seedripuidust ruudukujulisele plaadile, mille üks külg oli umbes 45 cm pikk, palve, mis sai sellest ajast perekonna igapäevaseks palveks.

126:3.4 (1389.7) At last Jesus gave up the idea of having each member of the family formulate spontaneous prayers, and one evening in October he sat down by the little squat lamp on the low stone table, and, on a piece of smooth cedar board about eighteen inches square, with a piece of charcoal he wrote out the prayer which became from that time on the standard family petition.

Sel aastal häiris Jeesust väga tema mõtetes valitsev segadus. Perekondlikud kohustused olid pühkinud kõik mõtted hakata kohe ellu viima mingeid plaane seoses pärast Jeruusalemma-ilmutust vastu võetud otsusega „oma Isa ülesandeid täita”. Jeesus arutles õigesti, et tema maise isa pere eest hoolitsemist tuleb pidada kõigist muudest kohustustest tähtsamaks; et oma pere toetamine peab jääma tema esmaseks kohustuseks.

126:3.5 (1389.8) This year Jesus was much troubled with confused thinking. Family responsibility had quite effectively removed all thought of immediately carrying out any plan for responding to the Jerusalem visitation directing him to “be about his Father’s business.” Jesus rightly reasoned that the watchcare of his earthly father’s family must take precedence of all duties; that the support of his family must become his first obligation.

Sel aastal leidis Jeesus niinimetatud Eenoki raamatust ühe lõigu, mille mõjul ta hakkas hiljem tähistama oma annetumismissiooni Urantial terminiga „Inimese Poeg”. Ta oli juudi messia idee põhjalikult läbi kaalunud ja kindlalt veendunud, et talle polnud määratud selleks messiaks saada. Ta ihkas oma isa rahvast aidata, kuid ei lootnud kunagi juhtida juutide vägesid Palestiinas välismaist ülemvõimu kukutama. Ta teadis, et ei asu kunagi Jeruusalemmas Taaveti troonile. Ning ta ei arvanud ka, et tema missiooniks on olla vaimne vabastaja või moraaliõpetaja ainuüksi juudi rahvale. Seepärast ei saanud tema elu missioon mingis mõttes täita heebrea pühakirjade pinevaid igatsusi ja oletatavaid ennustusi messiast; vähemalt mitte nii, nagu juudid neist prohvetite ennustustest aru said. Ta oli ka kindel, et ei ilmu kunagi Inimese Pojana, keda oli kirjeldanud prohvet Taaniel.

126:3.6 (1390.1) In the course of this year Jesus found a passage in the so-called Book of Enoch which influenced him in the later adoption of the term “Son of Man” as a designation for his bestowal mission on Urantia. He had thoroughly considered the idea of the Jewish Messiah and was firmly convinced that he was not to be that Messiah. He longed to help his father’s people, but he never expected to lead Jewish armies in overthrowing the foreign domination of Palestine. He knew he would never sit on the throne of David at Jerusalem. Neither did he believe that his mission was that of a spiritual deliverer or moral teacher solely to the Jewish people. In no sense, therefore, could his life mission be the fulfillment of the intense longings and supposed Messianic prophecies of the Hebrew scriptures; at least, not as the Jews understood these predictions of the prophets. Likewise he was certain he was never to appear as the Son of Man depicted by the Prophet Daniel.

Aga kuidas peaks ta ennast siis nimetama, kui saabub aeg õpetajana laia maailma minna? Kuidas esitada oma missiooni? Kuidas hakkavad teda kutsuma inimesed, kes tema õpetusi uskuma jäävad?

126:3.7 (1390.2) But when the time came for him to go forth as a world teacher, what would he call himself? What claim should he make concerning his mission? By what name would he be called by the people who would become believers in his teachings?

Nende probleemide üle järele mõeldes leidis ta Naatsareti sünagoogi raamatukogus apokalüptilisi raamatuid uurides käsikirja pealkirjaga „Eenoki raamat” ja ehkki ta oli kindel, et seda polnud kirjutanud iidsel ajal Eenok, pakkus see talle palju põnevust ja ta luges seda ikka ja jälle. Eriti sügava mulje jättis üks lõik, milles kasutati terminit „Inimese Poeg”. Selle raamatu kirjutaja jutustas Inimese Pojast, kirjeldades tema tööd maa peal ja selgitades, et see Inimese Poeg oli enne, kui ta maa peale inimkonda päästma tuli, kõndinud koos oma Isaga, kõigi Isaga, läbi auliste taevaste õuede; ning et ta oli pööranud kogu sellele suursugususele ja hiilgusele selja, et tulla alla maa peale kuulutama puudustkannatavatele surelikele pääsemist. Kui Jeesus neid lõike luges (saades hästi aru, et nende õpetustega segunenud idamaine müstitsism oli suures osas ekslik), tundis tema süda ja meel, et kõigist heebrea pühakirjade ennustustest messiast ja kõigist teooriatest juutide vabastaja kohta polnud ükski tõele nii lähedal kui see lugu, mida kätkes too vaid osaliselt tunnustatud Eenoki raamat; ning ta otsustas otsekohe võtta endale oma tegevust alustades nimi „Inimese Poeg”. Seda ta ka tegi hiljem oma avalikku tööd alustades. Jeesusel oli eksimatu võime ära tunda tõde ja ta võttis tõe alati kõhklematult omaks, ükskõik kust see pealtnäha ka ei pärinenud.

126:3.8 (1390.3) While turning all these problems over in his mind, he found in the synagogue library at Nazareth, among the apocalyptic books which he had been studying, this manuscript called “The Book of Enoch”; and though he was certain that it had not been written by Enoch of old, it proved very intriguing to him, and he read and reread it many times. There was one passage which particularly impressed him, a passage in which this term “Son of Man” appeared. The writer of this so-called Book of Enoch went on to tell about this Son of Man, describing the work he would do on earth and explaining that this Son of Man, before coming down on this earth to bring salvation to mankind, had walked through the courts of heavenly glory with his Father, the Father of all; and that he had turned his back upon all this grandeur and glory to come down on earth to proclaim salvation to needy mortals. As Jesus would read these passages (well understanding that much of the Eastern mysticism which had become admixed with these teachings was erroneous), he responded in his heart and recognized in his mind that of all the Messianic predictions of the Hebrew scriptures and of all the theories about the Jewish deliverer, none was so near the truth as this story tucked away in this only partially accredited Book of Enoch; and he then and there decided to adopt as his inaugural title “the Son of Man.” And this he did when he subsequently began his public work. Jesus had an unerring ability for the recognition of truth, and truth he never hesitated to embrace, no matter from what source it appeared to emanate.

Selleks ajaks oli ta oma eelseisva töö kohta maailma hüvanguks juba palju asju selgeks saanud, kuid ta ei rääkinud neist midagi emale, kes hoidis ikka veel kindlalt kinni ideest, et ta poeg on juutide messias.

126:3.9 (1390.4) By this time he had quite thoroughly settled many things about his forthcoming work for the world, but he said nothing of these matters to his mother, who still held stoutly to the idea of his being the Jewish Messiah.

Nüüd hakkas tekkima Jeesuse noorusaja suur segadus. Olles oma maise missiooni olemuse — „täita oma Isa ülesannet”, näidata kogu inimkonnale Isa armastavat olemust — enda jaoks mõnevõrra selgeks saanud, hakkas ta taas mõtisklema paljude pühakirjades sisalduvate väidete üle, mis viitasid rahva vabastaja, juudi õpetaja või kuninga tulekule. Missugusele sündmusele need prohvetlikud ennustused viitasid? Kas ta polnud juut? või oli? Kas ta kuulus Taaveti suguvõssa või mitte? Ta ema väitis kindlalt, et kuulub; ta isa oli seisukohal, et ei kuulu. Ta otsustas, et ei kuulu sinna. Ent võib-olla olid prohvetid messia olemuse ja missiooni segi ajanud?

126:3.10 (1390.5) The great confusion of Jesus’ younger days now arose. Having settled something about the nature of his mission on earth, “to be about his Father’s business” — to show forth his Father’s loving nature to all mankind — he began to ponder anew the many statements in the Scriptures referring to the coming of a national deliverer, a Jewish teacher or king. To what event did these prophecies refer? Was not he a Jew? or was he? Was he or was he not of the house of David? His mother averred he was; his father had ruled that he was not. He decided he was not. But had the prophets confused the nature and mission of the Messiah?

Kas võis emal ikkagi õigus olla? Varem oli emal eriarvamuste tekkides enamikul juhtudel õigus olnud. Kui ta on uus õpetaja ja mitte messias, kuidas peaks ta siis ära tundma juudi messia, kui see tema maise missiooni ajal Jeruusalemma peaks ilmuma? Ja missugune suhe peaks tal selle juudi messiaga olema? Ning missugune peaks olema tema suhe oma perekonnaga pärast seda, kui ta asub eluülesannet täitma? suhe juutide riigi ja religiooniga? Rooma impeeriumiga? paganate ja nende religioonidega? Noor galilealane arutles ja mõtiskles tõsiselt kõigi nende ülitähtsate probleemide üle, teenides samal ajal puusepatööpingi taga endale, oma emale ja veel kaheksale näljasele suule vaevaga elatist.

126:3.11 (1391.1) After all, could it be possible that his mother was right? In most matters, when differences of opinion had arisen in the past, she had been right. If he were a new teacher and not the Messiah, then how should he recognize the Jewish Messiah if such a one should appear in Jerusalem during the time of his earth mission; and, further, what should be his relation to this Jewish Messiah? And what should be his relation, after embarking on his life mission, to his family? to the Jewish commonwealth and religion? to the Roman Empire? to the gentiles and their religions? Each of these momentous problems this young Galilean turned over in his mind and seriously pondered while he continued to work at the carpenter’s bench, laboriously making a living for himself, his mother, and eight other hungry mouths.

Enne selle aasta lõppu nägi Maarja, et perekonna rahavarud on kahanemas. Ta andis tuvide müümise Jaakobuse hoolde. Peagi ostsid nad teise lehma ja hakkasid Mirjami abiga Naatsaretis naabritele piima müüma.

126:3.12 (1391.2) Before the end of this year Mary saw the family funds diminishing. She turned the sale of doves over to James. Presently they bought a second cow, and with the aid of Miriam they began the sale of milk to their Nazareth neighbors.

Jeesuse sügavad mõtisklusperioodid, sagedased mäetipul palvetamas käimised ja paljud veidrad mõtted, millega ta aeg-ajalt lagedale tuli, ajasid ema väga ärevile. Mõnikord ta mõtles, et poisi mõistusega pole kõik korras, kuid tema kartused said leevendust, kui talle meenus, et Jeesus on ikkagi tõotatud laps ja teistest noortest mõneti erinev.

126:3.13 (1391.3) His profound periods of meditation, his frequent journeys to the hilltop for prayer, and the many strange ideas which Jesus advanced from time to time, thoroughly alarmed his mother. Sometimes she thought the lad was beside himself, and then she would steady her fears, remembering that he was, after all, a child of promise and in some manner different from other youths.

Jeesus aga õppis mõnda mõtet varjama ega rääkinud kõigest maailmale, isegi mitte emale. Alates sellest aastast hakkas Jeesus järjest vähem avaldama, mis tema meeles toimus; see tähendab, et ta rääkis vähem asjadest, millest tavalised inimesed ei suutnud aru saada ja mis oleksid sundinud teisi teda iseäralikuks või erinevaks pidama. Pealtnäha muutus ta tavaliseks traditsioone järgivaks noormeheks, kuigi ta igatses kohata kedagi, kes tema probleeme mõistaks. Ta ihkas leida usaldusväärset ja saladusi hoidvat sõpra, kuid tema probleemid olid ta inimestest kaaslastele arusaamiseks liiga keerulised. Tema ebatavalise olukorra ainulaadsus sundis teda oma koormat üksi kandma.

126:3.14 (1391.4) But Jesus was learning not to speak of all his thoughts, not to present all his ideas to the world, not even to his own mother. From this year on, Jesus’ disclosures about what was going on in his mind steadily diminished; that is, he talked less about those things which an average person could not grasp, and which would lead to his being regarded as peculiar or different from ordinary folks. To all appearances he became commonplace and conventional, though he did long for someone who could understand his problems. He craved a trustworthy and confidential friend, but his problems were too complex for his human associates to comprehend. The uniqueness of the unusual situation compelled him to bear his burdens alone.

4. Esimene jutlus sünagoogis

4. First Sermon in the Synagogue

Viieteistkümnenda sünnipäeva saabudes võis Jeesus hingamispäeval ametlikult sünagoogi kõnepulti astuda. Jeesust oli varemgi korduvalt palutud esinejate puudusel pühakirja ette lugeda, kuid nüüd oli saabunud päev, mil seadus lubas tal teenistust pidada. Seepärast korraldas hazan nii, et esimesel laupäeval pärast oma viieteistkümnendat sünnipäeva võis Jeesus sünagoogis hommikupalvuse läbi viia. Kui kõik Naatsareti usklikud olid kokku tulnud, tõusis pühakirjadest valiku teinud noormees püsti ja hakkas lugema:

126:4.1 (1391.5) With the coming of his fifteenth birthday, Jesus could officially occupy the synagogue pulpit on the Sabbath day. Many times before, in the absence of speakers, Jesus had been asked to read the Scriptures, but now the day had come when, according to law, he could conduct the service. Therefore on the first Sabbath after his fifteenth birthday the chazan arranged for Jesus to conduct the morning service of the synagogue. And when all the faithful in Nazareth had assembled, the young man, having made his selection of Scriptures, stood up and began to read:

„Issanda Jumala vaim on minu peal, sest Issand on mind võidnud; ta on mind läkitanud viima rõõmusõnumit alandlikele, parandama neid, kel murtud süda, kuulutama vabastust vangidele ja avama pimedate silmi; kuulutama Jumala meelepärast aastat ja meie Jumala kohtu päeva; trööstima kõiki leinajaid, andes neile ehte tuha asemele, rõõmuõli leina asemele, ülistusrüü kurva vaimu asemele, et neid nimetataks õigluse puudeks, Issanda istanduseks, millega ta ennast ehib.

126:4.2 (1391.6) “The spirit of the Lord God is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me; he has sent me to bring good news to the meek, to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and to set the spiritual prisoners free; to proclaim the year of God’s favor and the day of our God’s reckoning; to comfort all mourners, to give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy in the place of mourning, a song of praise instead of the spirit of sorrow, that they may be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, wherewith he may be glorified.

Otsige head, aga mitte kurja, et te jääksite elama! Siis on teie Issand, vägede Jumal teiega. Vihake kurja ja armastage head, pange väravas kehtima õigus. Vahest Issand Jumal annab armu Joosepi põrmule.

126:4.3 (1392.1) “Seek good and not evil that you may live, and so the Lord, the God of hosts, shall be with you. Hate the evil and love the good; establish judgment in the gate. Perhaps the Lord God will be gracious to the remnant of Joseph.

Peske end, puhastage end; saatke oma tegude kurjus mu silme alt ära; lakake paha tegemast ja õppige tegema head; nõudke õigust, vabastage rõhutuid. Tehke vaeslapsele õigust ja lahendage lesknaiste kohtuasju.

126:4.4 (1392.2) “Wash yourselves, make yourselves clean; put away the evil of your doings from before my eyes; cease to do evil and learn to do good; seek justice, relieve the oppressed. Defend the fatherless and plead for the widow.

Millega pean ma tulema Issanda ette, kummardama kogu maailma Jumala ette? Kas pean tulema ta ette põletusohvritega, aastaste mullikatega? Ons Issandal hea meel tuhandeist jääradest, kümneist tuhandeist lammastest või õlijõgedest? Kas pean andma oma esmasündinu üleastumise eest, ihuvilja oma hinge patu eest? Ei, sest Issand on andnud meile inimestele teada, mis on hea. Ja mida nõuab Issand sinult muud, kui et sa teeksid, mis on õige, armastaksid armulikkust ja käiksid alandlikult ühes oma Jumalaga?

126:4.5 (1392.3) “Wherewith shall I come before the Lord, to bow myself before the Lord of all the earth? Shall I come before him with burnt offerings, with calves a year old? Will the Lord be pleased with thousands of rams, ten thousands of sheep, or with rivers of oil? Shall I give my first-born for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul? No! for the Lord has showed us, O men, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you but to deal justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with your God?

Kellega te siis võrdlete Jumalat, kes maasõõri kohal istub? Tõstke oma silmad üles ja vaadake: kes on loonud kõik need maailmad, kes loendab nende väge arvuliselt ja nimetab neid kõiki nimepidi. Tema suure võimu ja tugeva jõu tõttu ei puudu neist ainustki. Tema annab väsinuile rammu ja jõuetumale palju jõudu. Ära karda, sest mina olen sinuga; ära vaata ümber, sest mina olen su Jumal. Ma teen sind tugevaks, ma aitan sind; ma toetan sind oma õigluse parema käega, sest mina olen sinu Issand Jumal. Ja ma kinnitan su paremat kätt ning ütlen sulle: „Ära karda, sest mina aitan sind.”

126:4.6 (1392.4) “To whom, then, will you liken God who sits upon the circle of the earth? Lift up your eyes and behold who has created all these worlds, who brings forth their host by number and calls them all by their names. He does all these things by the greatness of his might, and because he is strong in power, not one fails. He gives power to the weak, and to those who are weary he increases strength. Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and I will help you; yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness, for I am the Lord your God. And I will hold your right hand, saying to you, fear not, for I will help you.

Teie olete minu tunnistajad, ütleb Issand, minu sulased, keda ma olen valinud, et te teaksite, usuksite minusse ja mõistaksite, et mina olengi Igavene. Mina, mina olen Issand, ei ole muud päästjat kui mina.”

126:4.7 (1392.5) “And you are my witness, says the Lord, and my servant whom I have chosen that all may know and believe me and understand that I am the Eternal. I, even I, am the Lord, and beside me there is no savior.”

Ja olles seda lugenud, võttis ta istet ja inimesed läksid oma kodudesse, mõeldes nende sõnade üle, mis ta nii kaunilt neile oli lugenud. Linnaelanikud ei olnud veel kunagi näinud teda nii suursuguselt pühalikuna; nad ei olnud veel kunagi kuulnud tema häält nii tõsise ja siirana, nad polnud teda kunagi näinud nii meheliku, otsustava ja autoriteetsena.

126:4.8 (1392.6) And when he had thus read, he sat down, and the people went to their homes, pondering over the words which he had so graciously read to them. Never had his townspeople seen him so magnificently solemn; never had they heard his voice so earnest and so sincere; never had they observed him so manly and decisive, so authoritative.

Sel sabati pärastlõunal ronis Jeesus koos Jaakobusega Naatsareti mäest üles ja koju jõudes kirjutas kahele siledale tahvlile söega kreeka keeles kümme käsku. Hiljem Marta värvis ja kaunistas neid ning need rippusid kaua Jaakobuse väikese tööpingi kohal seinal.

126:4.9 (1392.7) This Sabbath afternoon Jesus climbed the Nazareth hill with James and, when they returned home, wrote out the Ten Commandments in Greek on two smooth boards in charcoal. Subsequently Martha colored and decorated these boards, and for long they hung on the wall over James’s small workbench.

5. Rahalised raskused

5. The Financial Struggle

Jeesus ja tema pere pöördusid järk-järgult tagasi oma varasemate aastate lihtsa elu juurde. Nende rõivad ja isegi toit muutusid lihtsamaks. Neil oli palju piima, võid ja juustu. Viljade küpsedes tundsid nad rõõmu aiasaadustest, kuid iga järgnev kuu sundis neid üha kokkuhoidlikumaks. Nende hommikusöök oli väga tagasihoidlik, kõige parema toidu hoidsid nad õhtusöögiks. Kuid nende juutide jaoks ei tähendanud rikkuse puudumine sotsiaalset alaväärtuslikkust.

126:5.1 (1392.8) Gradually Jesus and his family returned to the simple life of their earlier years. Their clothes and even their food became simpler. They had plenty of milk, butter, and cheese. In season they enjoyed the produce of their garden, but each passing month necessitated the practice of greater frugality. Their breakfasts were very plain; they saved their best food for the evening meal. However, among these Jews lack of wealth did not imply social inferiority.

Noormees oli juba peaaegu omandanud arusaamise oma aja inimeste elust. Seda, kui hästi ta mõistis elu kodus, põllul ja töökojas, näitavad tema hilisemad õpetused, milles ilmnevad nii täielikult tema lähedased suhted inimkogemuste kõigi aspektidega.

126:5.2 (1392.9) Already had this youth well-nigh encompassed the comprehension of how men lived in his day. And how well he understood life in the home, field, and workshop is shown by his subsequent teachings, which so repletely reveal his intimate contact with all phases of human experience.

Naatsareti hazan uskus endiselt, et Jeesusest saab suur õpetaja, tõenäoliselt Jeruusalemma kuulsa Gamalieli järeltulija.

126:5.3 (1392.10) The Nazareth chazan continued to cling to the belief that Jesus was to become a great teacher, probably the successor of the renowned Gamaliel at Jerusalem.

Kõik Jeesuse edasise elu plaanid näisid olevat ohus. Asjaolud olid kujunenud nii, et tulevik ei paistnud tõotavat head. Kuid Jeesus ei löönud vankuma, see ei heidutanud teda. Ta elas päevast päeva, täites hästi ja ustavalt oma elu vahetuid igapäevakohustusi. Jeesuse elu on kõigile pettunud idealistidele igaveseks lohutuseks.

126:5.4 (1393.1) Apparently all Jesus’ plans for a career were thwarted. The future did not look bright as matters now developed. But he did not falter; he was not discouraged. He lived on, day by day, doing well the present duty and faithfully discharging the immediate responsibilities of his station in life. Jesus’ life is the everlasting comfort of all disappointed idealists.

Lihtsat päevatööd tegeva puusepa töötasu vähenes aegamööda. Aasta lõpuks suutis Jeesus varavalgest hilisööni töötades teenida ainult summa, mille väärtus oleks praegu kakskümmend viis senti. Järgmisel aastal oli juba raske kodanikumakse maksta, rääkimata sünagoogimaksudest ja pooleseeklisest templimaksust. Maksukoguja püüdis sel aastal Jeesuselt suuremat summat välja pigistada, ähvardades isegi tema harfi ära võtta.

126:5.5 (1393.2) The pay of a common day-laboring carpenter was slowly diminishing. By the end of this year Jesus could earn, by working early and late, only the equivalent of about twenty-five cents a day. By the next year they found it difficult to pay the civil taxes, not to mention the synagogue assessments and the temple tax of one-half shekel. During this year the tax collector tried to squeeze extra revenue out of Jesus, even threatening to take his harp.

Kartes, et maksukogujad võivad leida ja konfiskeerida kreekakeelsete pühakirjade koopia, kinkis Jeesus selle oma viieteistkümnendal sünnipäeval Naatsareti sünagoogi raamatukogule annetusena Issandale oma täisealiseks saamise puhul.

126:5.6 (1393.3) Fearing that the copy of the Greek scriptures might be discovered and confiscated by the tax collectors, Jesus, on his fifteenth birthday, presented it to the Nazareth synagogue library as his maturity offering to the Lord.

Viieteistkümnenda eluaasta suurim šokk tabas Jeesust siis, kui ta läks Sepphorisesse vastu võtma Herodese otsust talle esitatud edasikaebuse kohta seoses vaidlusega rahasumma üle, mis Joosepil jäi oma õnnetu surma tõttu saamata. Jeesus ja Maarja olid lootnud saada üsna palju raha, kuid Sepphorise varahoidja pakkus neile vaid tühist summat. Joosepi vennad olid esitanud edasikaebuse Herodesele endale, kuid nüüd seisis Jeesus palees ja kuulis Herodest otsustamas, et tema isale ei võlgnetud tema surma ajal midagi. Selle ebaõiglase otsuse pärast ei usaldanud Jeesus Herodes Antipast enam kunagi. Pole üllatav, et ta nimetas Herodest kord „selleks rebaseks”.

126:5.7 (1393.4) The great shock of his fifteenth year came when Jesus went over to Sepphoris to receive the decision of Herod regarding the appeal taken to him in the dispute about the amount of money due Joseph at the time of his accidental death. Jesus and Mary had hoped for the receipt of a considerable sum of money when the treasurer at Sepphoris had offered them a paltry amount. Joseph’s brothers had taken an appeal to Herod himself, and now Jesus stood in the palace and heard Herod decree that his father had nothing due him at the time of his death. And for such an unjust decision Jesus never again trusted Herod Antipas. It is not surprising that he once alluded to Herod as “that fox.”

Pidev töö puusepatööpingi taga sellel ja järgnevatel aastatel võttis Jeesuselt võimaluse suhelda karavanireisijatega. Perekonnale kuuluva varustuspoe oli onu juba üle võtnud ja Jeesus töötas ainult koduses töökojas, kus ta viibis Maarja ja perekonna lähedal ning sai neile abiks olla. Sel ajal hakkas ta saatma Jaakobust kaameliplatsile koguma teavet maailmas toimuva kohta, et end päevasündmustega kursis hoida.

126:5.8 (1393.5) The close work at the carpenter’s bench during this and subsequent years deprived Jesus of the opportunity of mingling with the caravan passengers. The family supply shop had already been taken over by his uncle, and Jesus worked altogether in the home shop, where he was near to help Mary with the family. About this time he began sending James up to the camel lot to gather information about world events, and thus he sought to keep in touch with the news of the day.

Meheks kasvades tegi ta läbi kõik need vastuolud ja segadused, mis iga noor inimene enne ja pärast teda. Karm kohustus oma perekonda ülal pidada kaitses teda kindlalt ülearuse jõudeaja mõtiskluste ja müstikasse kaldumise eest.

126:5.9 (1393.6) As he grew up to manhood, he passed through all those conflicts and confusions which the average young persons of previous and subsequent ages have undergone. And the rigorous experience of supporting his family was a sure safeguard against his having overmuch time for idle meditation or the indulgence of mystic tendencies.

Sel aastal rentis Jeesus nende kodust põhja pool üsna suure tüki maad, mis jagati perekonna aiamaatükkideks. Igal vanemal lapsel oli oma isiklik aed ja nad hakkasid oma põllumajandusalastes jõupingutustes innukalt võistlema. Taimekasvatushooajal veetis vanim vend iga päev nendega veidi aega aias. Nooremate õdede ja vendadega koos töötades soovis Jeesus sageli, et nad kõik elaksid maal talus, kus elu oleks palju vabam. Kuid nad ei elanud maal; ja Jeesus, kes oli ühtaegu nii idealist kui ka täiesti praktiline noormees, asus arukalt ja energiliselt kõiki tekkivaid probleeme lahendama. Ta tegi kõik, mis tema võimuses, et ennast ja peret kohandada reaalse olukorraga ja rahuldada selles olukorras võimalikult palju nende isiklikke ja ühiseid soove.

126:5.10 (1393.7) This was the year that Jesus rented a considerable piece of land just to the north of their home, which was divided up as a family garden plot. Each of the older children had an individual garden, and they entered into keen competition in their agricultural efforts. Their eldest brother spent some time with them in the garden each day during the season of vegetable cultivation. As Jesus worked with his younger brothers and sisters in the garden, he many times entertained the wish that they were all located on a farm out in the country where they could enjoy the liberty and freedom of an unhampered life. But they did not find themselves growing up in the country; and Jesus, being a thoroughly practical youth as well as an idealist, intelligently and vigorously attacked his problem just as he found it, and did everything within his power to adjust himself and his family to the realities of their situation and to adapt their condition to the highest possible satisfaction of their individual and collective longings.

Jeesus lootis, et siis, kui ta saab kätte tema isale Herodese lossi ehitusel töötamise eest võlgu jäädud suure summa, kogub ta piisavalt raha väikese talu ostmiseks. Ta oli tõepoolest tõsiselt mõelnud, et kolib oma perekonna maale. Kui aga Herodes keeldus Joosepile võlgu jäädud raha maksmast, loobusid nad maakodumõttest. Tegelikult õnnestus neil niigi maaelukogemusest rõõmu tunda, sest lisaks tuvidele oli neil nüüd kolm lehma, neli lammast, kanakari, eesel ja koer. Selle Naatsareti pere hästikorraldatud koduses elus olid ka väikestel mudilastel oma igapäevased kohustused täita.

126:5.11 (1393.8) At one time Jesus faintly hoped that he might be able to gather up sufficient means, provided they could collect the considerable sum of money due his father for work on Herod’s palace, to warrant undertaking the purchase of a small farm. He had really given serious thought to this plan of moving his family out into the country. But when Herod refused to pay them any of the funds due Joseph, they gave up the ambition of owning a home in the country. As it was, they contrived to enjoy much of the experience of farm life as they now had three cows, four sheep, a flock of chickens, a donkey, and a dog, in addition to the doves. Even the little tots had their regular duties to perform in the well-regulated scheme of management which characterized the home life of this Nazareth family.

Viieteistkümnenda eluaasta lõpuks oli Jeesus läbinud ohtliku ja raske inimeluperioodi — ülemineku muretutelt lapsepõlveaastatelt läheneva mehelikkuse tunnetamisele, millega kaasnesid uued kohustused ja võimalused omandada ülla iseloomu arenemiseks kõrgemaid kogemusi. Meele ja keha kasvuaeg oli möödas, nüüd algas selle Naatsareti noormehe tõeline elujärk.

126:5.12 (1394.1) With the close of this fifteenth year Jesus completed the traversal of that dangerous and difficult period in human existence, that time of transition between the more complacent years of childhood and the consciousness of approaching manhood with its increased responsibilities and opportunities for the acquirement of advanced experience in the development of a noble character. The growth period for mind and body had ended, and now began the real career of this young man of Nazareth.





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